|1.||the act of absolving or the state of being absolved; release from guilt, obligation, or punishment.|
Every year at this time I begin thinking about what my New Years Resolutions will be. And of course I write them down. Otherwise I might forget them and not actually accomplish them... insert sarcastic laughter here. And strangely enough, they are always the same. The list usually includes a lot of unrealistic goals about the way I will eat, how much I will exercise, how early I will get up every morning so I can be super productive, how I will transform my prayer and study life, how I am going to be more organized than ever with household chores and homeschooling, and the list goes on and on...and on. Just typing about it is slightly exhausting. Needless to say, this is a BIG. FAT. waste of time. That's why this year I am resolved to have only one resolution.... to daily celebrate my absolution.
Don't get me wrong. I appreciate new beginnings as much as the next gal. But God is showing me that one of the awesome things about being a Christ follower is that every day is a new beginning. Every moment even. December 31st or January 1st, it doesn't matter, for his compassions never fail - they are new every morning! Praise Him that Lamentations doesn't say his compassions are new every year!
2010 seemed to end on an especially frantic note for me. I will spare you the boring details, but there were times when I was pretty sure I would drown. As I struggled to keep my head above water, I became convicted that something had to change. The constant striving and the never arriving... it just became too much for this simple girl. And it is not what my Father has asked of me. In fact, it gets in the way of the thing he has asked of me - to love. That's why this guilt driven mama has finally decided to accept this precious gift of absolution. I know it will not be easy, but in 2011 I plan to operate under the truth that I am released from guilt -